musings of the gay swede

the musings of the gay swede, part one
here i am. beginning a journal again. beginning to tell the story of myself as it occurs.. and when i am older, i can look back and see what i was and where i have gone. a lot can happen in a year. a lot can happen in six months. in one month, even. lives change completely. lives evolve.
i'm feeling moody. i don't know why. one moment, i feel sad and depressed by my thoughts.. the next, i feel fine, even excited. it's a strange thing. in two months, i will turn 18. i will be considered an adult. but that's in two months. i feel like an adult now, in many respects. but it's hard when people take age too much into account and use it to disregard a person. know the person, not the age.
who's going to read this? who's going to know me? who's going to feel my moods, my emotions, my world? i seek to know myself..

today was an interesting day. ate breakfast, read the newspaper, dressed, and went off for school. i felt good. theory of knowledge brought an interesting discussion on language and how it affects people's knowledge and culture. choir was choir. lunch was lunch. english was... oi. we finally get to discussing prometheus bound... when we were supposed to have moved on and begun discussing oedipus rex. on monday. we're so smart, we need more time, no? now i have until monday to read oedipus rex. that's a plus. history... ah, history. and i who never read what i'm supposed to. i can't read history readings. they bore me. i get lost, confused.. i get distracted easily when i try to read a history reading. i prefer to learn by discussion or lecture, it seems.. where i can listen and take notes. my brain can comprehend that easier than reading, i guess.. not that i dislike reading. but history readings? oi. so history was my downer of the day. then there was the read-thru of 'the crucible' after school.... oh the joys of theatre. and the perks of being a student director, too!
so now i sit at home, listening to björk and contemplating how to structure my evening, with homework spaced into the commercials of my favourite television shows. oh the priorities the modern world gives us.

well.. for now, that should be enough. björk fascinates me. i shall focus my attention on her music..

Current Mood: moody
Current Music: björk

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